Previously on "Sayonara Watashi"
Sayonara Watashi
Eh?! Hey... What is this?
I have no idea...
We've...
...exchanged places?
Exchanged places?
Inseparable friends who had experienced their lives together, Hoshino Tomomi and Kaoru.
Having lost something important, but on the other hand, having been given something important...
...both of them were confused.
I've been wanting to see you.
Pulled away from her child...
...and embraced by her husband in her exchanged body, Tomomi.
Wrong... You're wrong.
Her maternal instincts awakening within her, Kaoru.
You had snatched Yosuke away from me, right?
And, now this time you're snatching my home and family away from me too, right?
Give me a hug!
Meeting him again after so long, she can't even hug her own child.
Their relationship was about to fall apart.
I feel I'm coming to love Kento-kun.
But... But!
Even if I do have such feelings... that child isn't my child.
That family... That family... It isn't mine.
I think about that every day!
It would have been better if we had never become friends!
Not one good thing has come out of you and I being together!
I shouldn't have had you as a friend! Geez, I hate you!
That night, the two of them broke their promises...
...and looked at each other's secret.
It was one part of a scarf they had shared during their high school days.
It may have been painful up till now...
...but can't we become friends?
If we are friends...
...then we can probably overcome most anything.
Sure.
For these two who had realized once again just how much they treasured each other...
...a new ordeal was waiting for them.
Hello?
It's me.
Yeah.
Sorry about earlier.
Yeah.
I'll call again.
All right.
So long.
Ah...
Are you okay, Tomomi?
Ah... sorry.
No...
We thought it was about time we left.
Ah... That's right.
Sorry.
Um... Look...
I... contacted Kaoru.
Yeah.
Look... 'Cause she's all bluff, you know.
I know.
Still, I wonder what was up with Kaoru today?
Did something happen?
I'll ask.
All right.
Then, I'll be going.
Ah... ah.
Wonder if there was any meaning to that party?
What's this about a "meaning"?
Say.
Huh?
What would you do if I said I wanted a divorce?
Huh?
Well?
"Well" you say...
How could I say "Okay" to that?
We have the children and our lives together.
Ehh...
What's this about?
You didn't say, "I won't have it," at all.
Eh?
So that's the extent of your reaction, huh...
Huh?
Were you a little happy?
At the thought of getting divorced.
What's that?
Now I'm going home to my house!
Mama! Phone!
Yes!
Yes, this is the Hoshino residence.
Please wait a moment.
Here. Thank you.
Yes, hello?
Yes!
I'm Hoshino Tomomi.
Yes.
Yes...
An examination? For what?
Ah... no.
Yes. Well then, I'll come visit.
Tomorrow.
Yes.
Excuse me.
Heiwa Fansubs Presents
(Farewell Me)
Sayonara Watashi
Episode 4 "Premonition of a Breakup"
You're Hoshino Tomomi-san, aren't you?
Ah... Yes.
Ah, if you'd like, we can talk here.
Please, have a seat.
You were surprised at my sudden call asking you here, weren't you?
Ah... well...
These are the results of your recent medical examination.
Do you know what the shadow in this section is?
Ah... no.
We suspect that you have breast cancer.
When this section here was examined with ultrasound, that was confirmed in this image.
As we thought, the shadow was still there.
An examination by imaging alone does not provide a definite diagnosis that it is breast cancer...
...but speaking frankly, it's almost a certainty.
Hoshino-san, it is essential you undergo an examination as soon as possible and have a needle biopsy of it taken.
We will prick this black section with the needle and suction out a sample from it.
Of course, only after a local anesthetic...
Welcome.
You need to pick him up at one, don't you?
Ah... yeah.
Excuse me.
A Chamomile.
Certainly.
And then about work.
A copy draft for the next movie poster arrived.
I thought it was good, but what do you think?
Yeah.
I think this is good, too.
Thank you.
What is it?
Well...
I was just thinking you were working hard at this job.
Don't have much choice, do I?
Well, that's true, but still.
What is it?
Somehow... aren't you becoming a little more interested about this work?
So it's about that, huh?
Huh?
Don't misunderstand.
You're thinking that a full-time housewife has an inferiority complex towards working women, aren't you?
That unlike someone who is constantly doing thankless household chores...
...they should seek out worthwhile work instead...
Thing is, there is far too much prejudice against full-time homemakers and mothers in this world.
They think that even the difficulty of giving birth is just something commonplace.
They say that once they give birth, the tender face of a mother just comes along with it.
Give me a break!
I had to put in a lot of effort for that.
Just giving birth didn't change my face.
I had to put in an effort to get those calm and gentle feelings.
And it's the world that demands we seek out\nand try to get as close to their image of a mother figure.
And yet when they say that giving birth to a child is just some natural thing, that really pisses me off.
Just calling me a mother because I gave birth to a child doesn't make me one.
Being a mother takes a lot of effort and only long, long after that can you become one.
Ah... I'm exhausted.
What is it?
Somehow... hasn't your personality changed?
Could you say to more "me"-like.
When you have this face, it would seem like it.
What does that mean?
Thank you for waiting.
Say, isn't your complexion off somehow?
Are you okay?
Eh?
Well, there is something, isn't there?
What is it?
Please take care of yourself.
How about you? Are you okay?
Huh? Yeah!
I'm in good health. Nothing wrong with this body.
Ah... but.
But?
Look, isn't it futile for this body to be this tall?
Futile?
That is...
I wonder if my image of myself is still there?
I'm constantly hitting my head on things.
Stop that!
This is about your body.
Yeah.
It's rather...
Huh?
What is it?
It's rather...
...constipated, isn't it?
Hey, stop saying such things!
Say, maybe if we just do our best like this, we'll go back to our original selves, right?
What's the matter?
Ah...
Yeah!
Hey, hey, hurry and drink up already.
I know.
Good afternoon.
Preschool Assembly
We'll practice for the Preschool Assembly tomorrow, too.
Can all of you do your best?
Yes!
Well then everyone, goodbye.
Goodbye!
Mama!
What's the matter, Mama?
Sorry, sorry.
Mama is just a little unsure of what she's supposed to do.
Sorry.
Shall we go home?
Yeah.
Yamazaki.
Yes?
About this new project of yours.
Yes!
Though I disparage them so much, I do approve of your motivation in coming up with one project after another.
Still, unfortunately, the quality of them just keeps steadily going down.
Eh?
Well, don't get depressed.
Because even I didn't amount to much at the start.
Is that right?
It is.
At the time of my high school festival...
...I was asked if I could come up with a script, but what I created was the absolute worst.
Ehh...
And? What was the story about?
Huh?
The story was about a Prince and Princess who exchanged places.
Ah...
That's a little ordinary, isn't it?
I don't want to be told that by you though.
I'm sorry!
Shortly, in the auditorium, Year 2, Class D will be performing their play, "The Unfortunate Prince."
"The Unfortunate Prince."
We ask you to please come to the auditorium.
Surely there are such things.
What are you thinking, Ophelia?
I've been thinking this for a long time.
"Why have you and I switched places?"
And then I realized it.
I know why!
Why is it?
I'm sure... I'm certain...
...God gave this to you and I as a trial.
For what reason?
In order to see if you and I love each other from the bottom of our hearts.
If that's the case...
If that's the case, then God's and your plan was a success!
I...
...love her.
I pledge to God.
That I will definitely protect her.
Even at the sacrifice of this body.
If it's for your sake, I would even die for you.
Haruko! The dried leaves!
Whaa!
Piano! Piano!
One, two...
Mama!
Hello?
Ah, hello.
Where do I come now?
I'm on the first floor.
Have you gone up? I'll come up.
Ah no, I'll come down.
No, no, I'm fine with coming up.
No, I'm coming down now.
No... Ah, hello.
Ah... Good afternoon.
Hello. Sorry when you're so busy.
Ah, what should we do?
What should we do?
Ah, well, I'll go up then come down. Yes, yes.
She's definitely noticed something. Definitely.
And she's scary somehow.
Scary?
I say scary because she's angry, but isn't shouting or anything.
And she's saying things in a roundabout way.
Like what?
"I know about it."
"But I'll put up with it quietly for now."
"So in the meantime, please stop it."
She said that, huh?
Like I said, in a roundabout way.
And? What will you do?
Well, that's what I wanted to discuss with you.
Because you're the only one I can talk to.
Discuss it?
What should I do?
What do you want to do?
Eh? What do I want to do?
You have three possible answers.
You break up with Fuyuko-san and live with Haruko-san.
You divorce Haruko-san and take up with Fuyuko-san.
And the one other one is?
You lose both of them.
Eh?
Which would you say is best to go on with?
Ah, well...
Once Haruko-san becomes aware of it, you won't have that choice.
Ah, well...
That's true, but...
"But"?
Well...
The time where all you had was fun is now over.
There's nothing you can do anymore but choose.
What would you do if it was you?
I have prepared myself for what I would do.
And what would you do?
Somehow... you're a mysterious man, aren't you?
Am I?
Everything that you said is true...
But it's unconvincing.
That's the reason why humans struggle so much.
I hate things like "struggling."
Welcome back.
What's the matter? Has something happened?
No... I'm back.
What's the matter?
Well...
I just wanted to see you. That's all.
Really...
I'm happy.
Somehow, I'm scared.
Scared?
Yeah.
Scared.
You're scared of what choice your husband makes in the end?
Am I wrong?
You're not wrong.
You're right... I don't have the confidence.
I see.
I don't think he'll choose me.
I have no confidence at all... that he'll choose me.
I don't know what sort of woman she is...
...but I'm sure she's far younger and cuter than I am.
If like in Tomomi's family...
...our children were still little, that might be a big reason to choose me.
It's like, to me...
...there's no reason for him to choose me.
So... I have no confidence in myself.
That's why...
That's enough, Haruko.
But...
...if you've begun to move on it, you need to be resolved to it, Haruko.
Yeah.
Hey, cheer up!
It's not like you're dying!
I'm eating again.
Breast Cancer
Understanding Breast Cancer
An examination by imaging alone does not provide a definite diagnosis that it is breast cancer...
...but speaking frankly, it's almost a certainty.
The highest susceptibility to breast cancer comes in your 40's!
Hoshino-san, it is essential you undergo an examination as soon as possible and have a needle biopsy of it taken.
Determining life expectancy with breast cancer is difficult
We will prick this black section with the needle and suction out a sample from it.
Of course, only after a local anesthetic will the needle be inserted...
It will take about a week for the test results to come out.
Breast cancer is a disease you can fight.
How about we immediately plan for the day after tomorrow?
So please come the day after tomorrow, the 24th, at 9 am.
What should I do...
What about... me?
While in this body...
...will I die?
You aren't doing it with Tomomi?
Yeah. I'm not.
1 Year Ago
Why not?
Ah... Could it be that?
Once she gave birth to a child you can only see her now as a Mother.
But look, you don't have to do that since Tomomi is beautiful, isn't she?
It's not like that.
What do you mean?
It just doesn't suit Tomomi.
It doesn't suit her?
Right.
"Sex" is a shameful thing to her.
It exposes the embarrassing appearance of people.
Tomomi doesn't enjoy being seen like that.
I want to have a proper home.
I don't want to bring into that home...
...the ugly and odious parts of myself.
I'm a disgusting woman.
I have this feeling that I've won.
Huh?
No. It's nothing.
It's fine not to use contraceptives.
I won't get pregnant.
This is...
...divine punishment?
Welcome back.
You've worked hard.
May I come in?
Were you worried about me?
Or else...
...because I was upset...
...you were just worried about your own family?
Did something happen?
Did you think Hayakawa Kaoru was a woman who wouldn't get upset?
Did you think Hayakawa Kaoru would feel nothing...
...at seeing your home and child and happy family?
You don't know anything... about Hayakawa Kaoru.
It's true I thought you would handle it with a certain coolness.
That's not...
That was a bluff, wasn't it?
I could tell that.
In that case...
But... didn't you feel you wanted it like that?
That's true.
The you that got upset over there...
...is one I've come to love all the more.
What is that about?
Do you want to break up?
Eh?
You...
...don't want me to come anymore?
I'm home.
Welcome home.
Hey, hey, what do you think about that?
Huh?
A grave?
Right.
Because you're a second son, we should make a grave, shouldn't we?
Though we don't know which of us might die first in the future...
...we'd hate having to think about it then, wouldn't we?
So this is essential, isn't it?
Ah...
Well, that is true.
Then let's decide on one. That's okay, isn't it?
We'll sign up for one tomorrow. I already took a provisional one.
Huh?
Have a problem with that?
Ah... no.
And then, we'll be going on a trip on February 14th of next year.
Ah, is that right?
Because it's our wedding anniversary.
You should have discussed that with me...
Since it's gotten so close, there's no use in trying to cancel it.
All right.
Say.
Huh?
If... I wasn't around, what would you do?
What's this about?
For example...
...if I was in an accident...
...and died.
I'm sure Yosuke would be fine.
Well of course you would feel a little sad about it.
That's not true.
I might despair of this world and follow after you.
How about Kento?
If that happens.
Eh?
Kento needs a mother, doesn't he?
If that happens...
...make sure you find a mother for him.
If I became ill...
...I would choose the woman.
What is this? What's the matter?
It's okay, even if you do.
Okay?
Good night.
You have a "I can't stand this anymore!" look, don't you?
What were hoping for by calling me?
I know what it is.
Though under the impression you're an honor student, you've become a person who thinks like a fool.
"I can't take this anymore. I want to go back to who I was."
"If we fell down together here just like that last time, we might be able to return to our original selves."
"Let's do that!"
Am I wrong?
You're not wrong.
Thought so.
I'm against it.
Why?
We aren't the sort who can deliberately fall down a bunch of stairs after all.
You're okay with how things are now?
Are you enjoying it?
Whichever doesn't matter much to me.
Stop joking around.
And you? Are you okay doing that?
Do you want to go back to your sexless marriage?
You wouldn't have sex with Yosuke like the way you did yesterday.
Such a thing...
Then could I ask him for sex?
You'd be totally okay with it?
I would.
Yosuke told me that you and sex just don't go well together.
Eh? What is that?
What does that mean?
Dunno.
The two of you talked about such things?
That's the lowest!
That's true.
It'd be better if I just told him myself that I want to do it.
But I can't say that, can I?
You had bought that kind of underwear, but I couldn't put it on.
Eh? Did you look at it?
Even though you promised you wouldn't?
I looked, too.
Eh?
Kaoru...
...you once tried to have a child, didn't you?
Stop it.
But you had a miscarriage.
Stop.
Yui
It was a girl. You had even chosen a name.
I told you to stop it, didn't I!
It was about the same time that I gave birth to Kento, wasn't it?
And there I was, happily sending you photos by e-mail...
Insensitive, wasn't I?
I'm begging you; please stop.
Why didn't you tell me?!
Say.
What is it?
It would have been better if we had been lesbians, wouldn't it?
Huh?!
You are... from time-to-time...
...really stupid.
Hey, let's go back to how we were.
And then we could become better people than we were before, couldn't we?
Hey! Let's give it a try. Okay?
There's no reason to do that.
Why?
Hey. Why?
Because I can't let Tomomi die.
Eh?
A long time ago, I made a promise to God.
What about?
Tomomi...
You had an exam, didn't you? A screening for breast cancer.
Ah... Yeah.
Eh? What about it?
In your body...
...there's breast cancer.
Eh?
Your body...
...and my soul that's within it...
...might die.
Sayonara Watashi
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A person who loves Winter is...
(Winter = Fuyu, short for Fuyuko, too)
Your wife came.
Huh?
Such a thing is impossible!
"I'm scared! I'm scared! I'm scared!" and then cry!
Tell him everything, and then become Yosuke-san's wife.
Episode 5 "Crime and Punishment"
You're Kento-kun's Mama, after all.
We all did our best to live, didn't we?
?????????? Konna fuuni watashi wa itsumo It's always like this for me
?????????? Tsukanda bun dake touku naru Whenever I get hold of it, the more distant it grows
???????????? Kowasanai youni ikirunoni In spite of living so that it won't break
????????????? Kowarete shimau no wa naze darou If it's just going to break anyway, then I wonder why
?????????? Aisa nakya korekara mo Why do I still want love from here on
?????????? Yureru tabi ni tsukamunoni And if I'm shaken whenever I do get hold of it
????????????? Hanashite shimau no wa naze darou I wonder why it is I just let it go
????? Isoga nakya I must hurry
???????????? Anata o dakishimeru tame ni In order to embrace you
Drama 10
Sayonara Watashi
Episode 4 "Premonition of a Breakup"
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